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Siang ini saya membuang memori saya keluar jendela. Dibalik tembok kamar saya ini tidak ada tempat sampah maupun pemulung yang mau repot-repot membawa pergi, menanggung beban yang saya harap saya sendiri mampu memikul. Jadi begitulah, dibalik jendela berukuran sedang yang jernih ini, saya masih bisa melihat serpihan masa lalu maupun angan-angan yang saya bangun setengah mati itu, tergeletak begitu saja, menjadikannya memori-memori baru tentang memori itu sendiri. Jendela ini seakan seperti kaca yang membatasi objek museum, bedanya memori itu entah kenapa tidak mau berjejer rapi dan memilih berjubel, seakan tidak mau dipisahkan satu sama lainnya. Saya bisa saja menutup jendela saya dengan tirai, tapi lagi, saya akan tetap tau mereka menunggui saya di sana.
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