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If You're Reading This,

It means you've read all the gloomy nonsense I've been keeping on posting recently. Well don't worry, I guarantee you that it's only you (and a few friends of mine) that would read my blog (I even doubt that you still read this) (it's a good thing tho if you don't)(but I'm losing my way to talk to you so maybe it'll be as good if you read)(whatever). I'm sorry if I seemed so unhappy from all the things I've written recently, maybe I wasn't as unhappy as it seems, or maybe I was, idk, it's confusing. And there's too much pain in my diary now so I don't want to pour it in my diary again, besides, I can always delete the posts here.

If you ever wonder if I'm still happy to be with you, well it's a yes. I don't know but somehow it's still possible to be both happy and unhappy at the same time, or not in the exact same time.

I hope we'll get better
We SHOULD ger better
P.s. As long as you will for the same thing

Ily

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