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A Thought in Between The Talk

What are you looking for in a man? 
Uhm, nothing?

That's probably a stupid answer because, you know, I expect much on too many things. I grew up believing that my mind is a simple open book, tho it's actually a complicated maze. 

What am I looking for in a man? 

I thought I seek for nothing or perhaps I don't even know what I want and seek for everything instead. That's the reason of all our recent disagreements: each other's expectation doesn't meet our reality. Funny how I hate the love is greed a selfish little need line so much -yet I kept on proving it right. Maybe love itself is cruel? Or is it just the human nature taking its role?

What's certainly true is that you probably (god my diction is so bad bcs it's certainly and probably in the same sentence) don't know what you got 'til it's gone. Because as you repeated your question:

What are you looking for in a man, really?

My mind went blank. You stared right into my eyes. Funny how I always tried to find the right answer and came out with the wrong one. I don't know what I'm really looking for in a man. All I know is that all I want right now is the whole from that starry eyes in front of me.

I told you it's nothing! 


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