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Ada dua hal yang memacu otak gue buat bacot nulis: bershower dan sendirian di TransJakarta wakaka. Bottomline: semakin sering gue sendiri, semakin bacot lah gue. Jadi kalo gue bacot di twitter dan blog (kayak akhir-akhir ini), that only explains one thing HAHA. Okay let's just not take my alone-ness too serious.
Jadi kemaren, setelah ngesushi dan nonton madagascar 3 sama 3 cewek gila (re: arza acid laras) di setiabudi, gue pulang sendiri naik busway. Kemaren hari yang lumayan menyenangkan setelah hari-hari sebelumnya berasa sampis banget. We laughed a lot, so hard, that me and arza cried a bit hahaha.
Abis transit di kuningan timur, akhirnya langsung kan tuh ke pinang ranti. Udah jam 5 tapi belom rame-rame amat jadi gue dapet duduk :') At one point, orang di sebelah gue turun dan ganti jadi orang lain. Gue baru asik-asik dengerin album BBC yang I Had The Blues But I Shook Them Loose, tiba-tiba si ibu sebelah gue nerima telepon. Hari itu dengan randomnya gue lagi make headphone yang Audio Technica bukan earphone in-ear apple, jadi lebih kedap suara kan tuh. Nah si ibu-ibu itu tiba-tiba aja ngomong hot banget, tapi gue nggak denger dia ngomong apaan since kedap banget headphone gue, tapi pokoknya kedengeran lah nada tingginya dan suaranya berkelekar. Gue, secara professional *cailah, cuma ngeliatin muka orang-orang di depan gue. Gue gaperlu copot headphone dan nengok buat mastiin ni ibu-ibu beneran lagi heboh sendiri apa kagak. Jadi gue cuma observe mimik orang lain: ada yang ngelirik sesekali karena kepo, ada yang melengos males, ada yang gapeduli tetep tidur. Sumpah ini orang nepsong abis, dari sudut mata gue aja bibirnya yang sampe monyong-monyong dahsyat keliatan jelas. Tangannya gerak-gerak sendiri padahal lawan bicaranya juga nggak liat.
Sebenernya gue bisa aja kepo, bisa aja gue sok-sok dengerin ipod tapi lagunya gue matiin, demi dengerin si ibu ini lagi marah-marah sama siapa dan mungkin postingan ini bakal lebih seru kalo gitu. Tapi gue malah gedein volume, capek, entah kenapa gue capek. Minggu ini udah terlalu melelahkan batin gue, klimaksnya gara-gara kompas, dan hal-hal kecil lainnya yang sebenernya selalu jadi masalah gue tapi ketutup sama kesibukan sekolah dan sekarang berasa banget pas libur. Life has been shittier lately, jadi gue nggak perlu denger koaran ibu-ibu random yang terlalu mengekspos masalahnya ke seisi bis, gaperlu dibebani sama masalah orang lain lagi. I'm not talking as if I'm weighing those big world problems on my shoulder. I'm just being a teenager dealing with cliché problems, and believe me, I frickin hate cliché-_-
Dengan backsound Dust On The Ground dan sayup-sayup suara orang marah-marah, gue jadi keinget awal taun. Great times. Termasuk konser BBC, damn it, I wish I could get back to that time.... Entah kenapa kayaknya awal taun dan sekarang itu kalo dibandingin beda banget. Abis liburan semester, pelajaran belom berat, dan kerjaannya pergi mulu nonton konser 2 biji huhu.
Kangen nonton BBC sama acid, kejebak macet di sudirman dan pasrah, buru-buru beli tiket di calo dan pas masuk pas banget baru checksound, terus BBCnya keren banget meskipun kita cuma bermodal pengetahuan dari album kedua&ketiga dan gue malah baru tau album pertamanya yang I Had The Blues dan bengong pas Dust On The Ground dibawain gue kira aransemen ulang padahal malah itu original versionnya :') terus pulang malem-malem makan indomie rebus di pinggir jalan balai pustaka ujan-ujan....hahaha seru abis ye cid.
Life is about discovering ya kan? Kayak di konser itu, gue udah suka banget awalnya sama BBC, dan baru nemu dan tau lagu-lagu di album pertamanya yang ternyata sekarang malah album terkeren mereka menurut gue. Bedanya sama idup gue secara general, makin kesini (atau akhir-akhir) malah nemuin hal-hal yang ngubah great times gue jadi super suck. I'm exhausted to be honest. Gue tau gue kedengeran cengeng banget, percaya deh gue juga ga suka kayak gini, but what you see is what it is.
"And alright lets go outside,
and rise, rise, rise, to the meaning of life,
I'm trying but we're all falling out,
I want to go back to old times" -The Hill, Bombay Bicycle Club
Tapi yasudah lah, I got to be more grateful, live, and deal with it. If life is about discovering, then I'll discover plenty of enjoyable surprise around the corner, aamiin.

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