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Invest Your Misery!

Konon Herodotus dalam buku Historia pernah berkata, "Semakin sering seseorang menulis di blognya -terutama hal tidak penting-, semakin kesepian dan pengangguran lah ia." Mungkin iya mungkin nggak, karena sekarang gue bisa ngeles: mumpung ada waktu sebelum kuliah.

This is the last day of my monthly period, but the PMS phase just won't stop bitching out. Or the MS phase, since it's not 'pre-' anymore. In fact, we could interpret it into a new -but the same- thing now; Melancholic Syndrome. HAHA. So yesterday my hormone or just simply myself turns my-already melancholic-self into some super melancholic kid. And these are where I invest my melancholic energy:

#1 Watch (500) Days of Summer for the Zillionth Time and Capture ALL the Best Parts

 Oh have I told you that this is like my most favorite movie of all time? Some may find this movie a bore but I could watch it three times a day and still loving it, I've read the whole script and remember all the lines, and if one day I could only watch one movie for the rest of my life that movie will be (500) DoS. Period. Why? Here's why. This movie is perfect, and I don't want any discussion against it. The actors, the storyline, the dialogues, the soundtracks, the moods, the sets, the everything, perfect. And no bullshit involved.

Jadi cuma di film ini gue nemuin mood cerita yang terasa begitu kaya, seperti hidup seharusnya (ah tae tis sokbat). Setelah ratusan atau ribuan kali nonton gue tetep ngakak dan berkaca-kaca dan misuh-misuh dan aww-ing, pokoknya jangan pernah nonton film ini sama gue, berisiknya ga nanggung-nanggung dan sangat ngeselin. Ketika lo ada di mood terjelek lo, ini film bener-bener penyembuhan. Awalnya lo bakal gemes liat Tom-Summer super cute relationship dan menjadi hopeless romantic dengan mata berbinar-binar, setelah itu ada kalanya hati lo tersayat-sayat ngeliat seberapa miserable-nya Tom tanpa Summer, dan pada akhirnya lo punya alasan buat mengumpat orang (yeah being sentiment makes you want to curse all the time) karena Summer is a total bitch (-or as quoted, either she's an evil emotionless miserable human being or she's a robot). Pada tahap paling akhir biasanya lo merengek dalam hati mau langsung nikah aja sama Tom.

#2 Melancholy in Harveytown

 Setelah menyelesaikan pembuatan playlist ini gue langsung merasa kalo gue jenius. Awalnya cuma meringkuk dengerin Sparks sambil nyelesain suatu tulisan (yang sangat dangdut that people would poop after reading it) dan geregetan kenapa Chris kalo nyanyi pake hati banget dan liriknya sangat heartfelt, muncul gagasan untuk membuat playlist berisi lagu-lagu Coldplay paling heartfelt buat soundtrack hari-hari mendung kedepannya. And it was brilliant. Isinya kalo gak unyu banget ya galau banget.

Sparks: Track pertama karena gue yakin di lagu ini Chris beneran nyanyi pake hati bukan mulut, his voice is so innocent and loving and beautiful and the music is also painfully beautiful. Ceritanya cowoknya melakukan kesalahan terus mereka drift away, terus the guy just can't stop loving her in every way possible. Tanpa kata love pun bagi gue ini salah satu love song Coldplay terEHPIC. Dengarkan liriknya, resapi suaranya, dan rasakan sendiri efeknya.

Wedding Bells: Coldplay's saddest track, termasuk Amsterdam juga. Wedding Bells ceritanya tentang ditinggal kawin, men, ditinggal kawin woy. "Those wedding bells are ringing up upon that hill / and I don't wanna swallow such a bitter pill / you keep on moving but I stayed still / I always loved you and I'll always will." Jangan sampe ditinggal kawin ya guys, dengerin lagu ini aja udah banjir, amit-amit kejadian beneran. Pas bagian, "All kind of poison in my blood / I lost the only thing I've ever loved" rasanya sakit banget, bahkan nggak perlu nunggu lo ngalamin hal yang sama lo udah bisa ngerasain itu semua karena Chris is damn good in expressing it. Tapi Coldplay emang jenius, kawan, mendeskripsikan kehilangan dan derita ditinggal kawin dengan katanya badan lo rasanya diracunin. Ah.

Death and All His Friends: "So come over, just be patient, and don't worry." YES I WILL YES I WON'T WORRY ANYMORE. Terus di dalam lagu ini ada hidden track The Escapist yang menurut gue adalah bagian terbaik lagu ini.

The Scientist acoustic: The better version of the already perfect Coldplay song

Up With The Birds: Inget ending Live 2012 lagunya ini? Lagu ini begitu intim dan optimis di saat bersamaan. "And I won't show or feel any pain / even tho all my armor might rust in the rain / a simple plot / but I know one day good things are coming our way"

U.F.O: Lo tau lo akan mati ketika that future boy of your dreams singing, "then that light hits your eyes / I know I swear / we'll find somewhere the streets are made with gold" No reason, cuma dari sekitar banyak hal untuk dinyanyikan mereka milih frase "then that light hits your eyes" seakan-akan gimana mata seorang cewek memantulkan cahaya adalah sesuatu yang berarti... Bottomline, ini cuma cara seorang hopeless romantic menginterpretasikan lagu band favoritnya, jangan dimasukin ke hati, siapa tau aslinya you maksudnya alien.

uknowhat megulik lagu coldplay satu-satu lewat kacamata gue nggak akan selesai, gue kasih tracklistnya aja ya, and feel the magic yourself:
Sparks - Wedding Bells - See You Soon - For You - U.F.O - Shiver (acoustic) - Live is For Living (Glastonbury live version) - Careful Where You Stand - Fix You - Christmas Lights - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas - Us Against The World - Up in Flames - Up With the Birds - Shiver - Yellow - Parachutes - We Never Change - Prospekt's March - Now My Feet Won't Touch The Ground - Help is Around the Corner - Yellow (acoustic) - The Scientist (acoustic) - Gold in Them Hills - Warning Sign - Amsterdam - A Rush of Blood to the Head - Gravity - Death and All His  Friends - The Hardest Part - Swallowed in the Sea - A Message.

#3 Or Just Quit Being Miserable And Get A Life
Sukur-sukur kalo the (P)MS datengnya pas lagi nganggur gini, lah kalo ngga? Kalo lagi sibuk, jangan nyuri-nyuri waktu dengan alesan secupu "gue mau laying in the dark no sunshine dulu!" Ada kalanya gue harus tarik napas sebentar, bengong, dengerin Inni Mer Syngur Vitleysyngur, dan bersyukur. Nggak mungkin seorang manusia nggak punya apapun untuk disyukuri, edisi lebaran banget nih word of wisdomnya. Kalo dipikir-pikir ngapain juga cuma karena kalah sama hormon terus nurut bete seharian nggak ngapa-ngapain dan emang nggak ada apa-apa buat dibetein? Kecuali emang nganggur banget hehe #pembenaran. Things may fall off in the way we never want it to be, but that's life, and there's so many other things to be happy about, right?

Selamat malam takbiran, H-1 Lebaran, dan H-7 pindahan teman-teman!
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