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All the Fear, All the Pleasure

I dream a lot during my sleep. I dream of anything, from the most dream-like random things to just some normal (too) realistic dream.

The most painful dream of all is a dream about losing. It'll left me clueless and run out of breathe as I open my eyes, and once I got all the consciousness I will be so glad that it was all just a dream -but the details from the heartache will lingers anyway. 

I dreamed about losing for too many times. Well maybe it's because I fear so much about losing, idk. I've been losing so much on so many things in life but that doesn't mean that I am used to it.


(PARDON my duck face) This is my current favorite most comforting shoulder I ever rest my head into. And I'm sure as hell that I don't wanna lose it. I have a huge possesion on it, don't you once dare to steal it :p Well this is one of the biggest reason(s) that I fear SO SO MUCH about losing, it's just when you're settled for someone --he'll become your shelter. At the same time you feel safe around them but you could never bare the thought of them leaving. I mean who could?! It's the problem with human, we tend to get so clingy with other people.

I like to cling to you for so long tho

Naon?....

*maafkan kesampahan postingan ini
*sekali-sekali 

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