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That WTF Post

Besok travel paling pagi but now my eyes just won't close. I'm sleepy but not-so-sleepy to sleep and, as always, there's too many thoughts weighing my shoulder.

I'm in a big crisis of trusting people. Lame. It's like my own life is bailing on me since I moved to Bandung... Nothing goes my way and people just won't stop jerking out. I know it all started from those broken promises back at my very first day in Bandung, then I learn to stop giving a fuck about it and start building trusts and hopes to new people and new life--but then it brought me here; to the even lower point of having faith on everything except God. I just want some normal life where I don't have to be surrounded with bunch of audhsjfnsdjgrjr. I'm tired, okay. I'm so furious I don't know where to invest this anger I just feel like Ii'm going to burst into tears but then it'll be too weird GAHHH WTF WORLD.

This world is full of bullshit.
And your shit.
And yours
and yours
and yours too.

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