Tomorrow I'll have a test, a quiz, and two homeworks. I spent these whole week trying to save the semester by study harder than I've ever did, but not hard enough, I got distracted all the time (including posting this thought) and everything still fell apart like how it's ever been this past two semesters. I probably can't save the semester, or my whole college life, or apparently; my life. It's a pretty fucked up life that I  had now, academically. I kept on telling my parents that this semester will be much better than the super-fucked-up-last-semester, I lied to them....I even lied to my own self. I missed my chance to start over and build some new better life in some other place. Now here I am, stuck in where I feel like I don't belong -living alone and in total confusion everyday.

You know you're the best thing that I'm grateful for in my messy fucked up life in Bandung.

The rest are just giant pile of shit now.