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Kalo gue coba analogikan, kondisi gue sekarang seperti ini; gue sedang berenang terengah-engah di tengah laut lepas -nggak ada satu ujung daratan pun yang terlihat, nggak bisa balik tapi juga bingung mau berenang ke arah mana. Pilihannya cuma ini: mati tenggelam atau terus berenang tanpa tau arah dan bisa aja sewaktu-waktu mati ditelen hiu.

I don't want to be bitter or anything that's not nice... But these days I feel so alone, I have friends but no one to "talk" to because whatever popped up from me sounds like a total plain whining shit, and talking with my family only make things look harder than they already are. I feel lost and incomplete. I'm tired of being insecure but every single thing just won't go my way anymore. 

Well, okay, I know things could went a lot worse in anybody else's life, and so that I need to be more grateful...hhh I hope I'll find whatever God had planned to ignite the path and in the end I'll feel like I'm home again. Because this too shall pass, ait?

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