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Seminggu di kosan, dan ini kali pertama the gloomy phase strikes in. Everything seems like a pile of shit to me. Setelah tujuh hari kepewean, hari ke delapan ini adalah hari dimana gue udah pengen pindah kosan aja. Kenapa? INTERNET DAN SINYAL. Sebenernya internet kenceng-kenceng aja ini, tapi gak bisa konek ke iphone dan ipod. Blackberry gue, satu-satunya gadget yang (kadang-kadang) bersinyal, kemaren lcdnya rusak untuk yang keempat kalinya. Wastafel kamar mandi gue bocor dan ga di bener-benerin. I'm isolated once I got back to this place. It doesn't feel like home anymore. Satu-satunya yang bikin betah sama kosan ini cuma keempat teman w :( Orang tua gue setiap hari stres mau menghubungi gue, dan sekalinya gue keluar kosan, gue lagi acara kampus. Hahhh. Baru seminggu, tapi semua udah drift away. Ini saat dimana hal-hal yang lo takutin bakal terhapus waktu akhirnya bener-bener terhapus waktu, kayak hobi-hobi gue yang kebuang kemana au tiap ada acara pengenalan kampus etc. Gue t...

Konon Herodotus dalam buku Historia pernah berkata, "Semakin sering seseorang menulis di blognya -terutama hal tidak penting-, semakin kesepian dan pengangguran lah ia." Mungkin iya mungkin nggak, karena sekarang gue bisa ngeles: mumpung ada waktu sebelum kuliah . This is the last day of my monthly period, but the PMS phase just won't stop bitching out. Or the MS phase, since it's not 'pre-' anymore. In fact, we could interpret it into a new -but the same- thing now; Melancholic Syndrome. HAHA. So yesterday my hormone or just simply myself turns my-already melancholic-self into some super melancholic kid. And these are where I invest my melancholic energy: #1 Watch (500) Days of Summer for the Zillionth Time and Capture ALL the Best Parts Oh have I told you that this is like my most favorite movie of all time? Some may find this movie a bore but I could watch it three times a day and still loving it, I've read the whole script and remember all the li...

"You treat me like shit and you can just sit around like that?" I made a sudden entrance to his open door, he looked at me, his face was sinless. "I'm what now?" He laughed a little. He took a newspaper from a seat next to him, gesturing me to sit there. I picked a one and only cigarette from my pocket, putting it into my mouth. "Lighter?" He offered me, and I nodded. He lit up my cigarette. I inhaled and exhaled the smoke, didn't even care how the smoke covering his face. I coughed, one smoke and it's already killing my lungs, I could feel it burning down my chest and I still didn't give a fuck. He needed a confrontation, my confrontation. "You have an asthma." He told me as if I don't know a thing about my own body and in other way telling me I'm a dumbhead. "You lit up my cigarette" I said that and smoke a couple more of my cigarette. And coughed a lot more, too. "I'm the bad guy now?" H...

"...untuk melakukan pencapaian lebih, kita tak bisa hanya bertahan di tempat yang sama. Tidak ada kehidupan yang lebih baik yang bisa didapatkan tanpa melakukan perpindahan. Mau tidak mau, kita harus seperti ikan salmon. Tidak takut pindah dan berani berjuang untuk mewujudkan harapannya." -Raditya Dika, Manusia Setengah Salmon Ya, gue memang salah satu orang yang mengambil life lesson dari buku komedi nonfiksi, sekalipun penulisnya pernah mencoba ngilangin jerawat pake kolor bokapnya. Tapi justru disitu, komedi terutama yang nonfiksi, selalu berformat jujur, jadi no bullshit involved. H-11 . Gue bener-bener berharap gue bisa mengadaptasi kehidupan salmon. Lo tau gak kenapa salmon? Salmon itu ikan yang selalu bermigrasi tiap tahunnya, melawan arus sungai, ribuan kilometer jauhnya -untuk bertelur. Dan jangan kira salmon adalah binatang super, dalam proses kayak gitu banyak diantaranya yang mati, tapi seenggaknya semua ikan salmon berani take a leap of faith. Pokoknya har...