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Alhamdulillah


Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar... Terimakasih Ya Allah

Semoga nggak terdengar seperti bragging, karena emang ngga, gue bener-bener bersyukur banget sangat super (<-bukan kalimat efektif)... dan gue ngepost ini cuma mau merangkum perasaan gue dan serentetan makasih hehe.

Hari ini adalah hari yang super duper panjang dan meresahkan, pala pusing berat pasca tes ugm kemaren 6,5 jam di depan AC, dan jatoh kejengkang di kamar mandi gara-gara diisengin si gendut. Karena parnoan, kewaswasan gue terakumulasi dari berbagai hal ga penting apalagi h-30 menit laptop gue sempet error, pokoknya gue ga berhenti berdoa kalo semua kesialan gue ngga ada hubungannya sama hasil sbmptn.

Dan alhamdulillah ngga :D

Gue nangis kejer, kata nyokap gue nangisnya kayak nangis sedih hahaha, am not. Jujur dari pasca sbmptn gue cuma berdoa dapet pilihan ketiga atau simak aja tapi ternyata dapet ini YaAllah indah banget, gimana gak nangis kejer? Sampe sekarang gue masih mikir, "Do I deserve this?" karena perlu diakui dan disadari kepinteran gue di sekolah kelas maupun inten bisa dibilang menengah kebawah (nggak merendah, ada buktinya) tapi lagi, gue selalu berdoa sama Allah buat dapet yang terbaik, insyaAllah ini emang yang terbaik. Aamiin.

Tadi bokap sempet berkaca-kaca (doi emo tapi nggak mellow), nyokap nangis-nangis antara seneng dan stres ditinggal gue, dan kakak gue...terlihat seneng in his own way. Ini yang namanya a true private kind of happiness. Mereka bertiga adalah orang yang paling berjasa di semua langkah gue, dari dukungan moral sampe anter-jemput demi sekolah dan terutama inten, bener-bener kata makasih aja nggak cukup :'( tisya sayang kalian huweee.

Dan terimakasih buat guru-guru 8, guru-guru Inten terutama; Pak RB, Pak Coster, Pak Jack, Bu SA, Bu Vera, Mba Uci, Kak FR, Bu CL, Bu JL, Bu Nera, SEMUA INTEN XMALANG ALL BASE DEH. Juga temen-temen seperjuangan; GJC, del-ca-cid-put-pav, ITA KM-1 dan geng ambis xmalang...makasih banyak dan yang belum dapet semoga cepet dapet kabar baik dari tes-tes mandiri yah :) aamiin. Makasih juga buat semua temen-temen yang nggak ikut berjuang (?) sama support-supportnya, makasih buat my other bro yang help me through the hardest, makasih bibi sumarti atas segala jasanya, makasih om&tante, makasih semuanya deh pokoknya I couldn't done any of this without you guys, I love you :*

Sekarang, kalo kata Nadik; "lo bisa survive gak? mampus lo." Well...intinya harus dijalani dengan sepenuh hati dan keringat dan darah dan lain-lain, belajar mandiri setelah 16 tahun lebih di dekapan ketek mami, dan menjadi the real definition of dewasa. Ini semua baru permulaan guys... doain ya :'''))))

Semoga selalu dalam berkah dan ridho Allah di Fakultas Teknik Industri Institut Terbaik Bangsa :)
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