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It was bright until the light is out There was laughter before turned into tantrums There was time filled with colors, then suddenly drowned by the cold monochrome Questioning, when you know what's the answer Taking guesses, when you know how that would end But you blinded by those things people say Finding comfort behind the mystery of time "Just so you wait, it will be worth" You failed to close your ears, so you let it controls your mind Patient, wasn't the key You wait anyway, with a forced guts You're under the spell, in which unrealistic is what makes sense Hope slowly eats you up inside And then the time has come All of your fears finally revealed Awaken by the bitterness So why so surprised? It's with you all these time So why feeling let down? You never moved an inch, it's where you belong All you could do is embracing the silence Staring to empty space Cause there's nothing left You've not been blind nor deaf You...

Ada dua hal yang memacu otak gue buat bacot nulis: bershower dan sendirian di TransJakarta wakaka. Bottomline: semakin sering gue sendiri, semakin bacot lah gue. Jadi kalo gue bacot di twitter dan blog (kayak akhir-akhir ini), that only explains one thing HAHA. Okay let's just not take my alone-ness too serious. Jadi kemaren, setelah ngesushi dan nonton madagascar 3 sama 3 cewek gila (re: arza acid laras) di setiabudi, gue pulang sendiri naik busway. Kemaren hari yang lumayan menyenangkan setelah hari-hari sebelumnya berasa sampis banget. We laughed a lot, so hard, that me and arza cried a bit hahaha. Abis transit di kuningan timur, akhirnya langsung kan tuh ke pinang ranti. Udah jam 5 tapi belom rame-rame amat jadi gue dapet duduk :') At one point, orang di sebelah gue turun dan ganti jadi orang lain. Gue baru asik-asik dengerin album BBC yang I Had The Blues But I Shook Them Loose, tiba-tiba si ibu sebelah gue nerima telepon. Hari itu dengan randomnya gue lagi make headphon...

Holiday is coming! Udah nyiapin playlist liburan belom? *sok asik mode on* Lagi tergila-gila sama The Drums nih. Sejak 3 bulan yang lalu sebenernya wkwk. Gue selalu gitu kalo udah suka sesuatu pasti susah move on, mau dalam bidang apapun eaeaea canda. Sekarang mau coba review album kedua mereka ah, Portamento. Album ini emang udah berumur ±8 bulan, tapi kemunculannya di random public places semacem ak.sa.ra, topshop, cafe-cafe, atau tempat lain yang kebetulan gue datengin, nggak pernah terdengar basi dan malah selalu sukses bikin atmosphere lebih homey. Bahkan pas di bengkel sekalipun gue masih menikmati album ini sebagai temen setia lewat ipod gue, memang seforeveralone itu gue :') Dengan beberapa lirik galau klimaksnya yang disamarkan dengan nada-nada dan musik cheerful khas mereka, juga berhasil boosting mood buat siapapun yang denger. Jadi kalo gapunya mood-booster idup kayak w, silahkan beralih sama Portamento wehehe. Cocok banget buat liburan sama kayak era-nya S...

Love is just a game, they said Hell, life IS just a game Running, stumbling, falling Looking for something makes sense We live in a classic magic trick Silly hallucinations, invading our lungs We respire the oxygen of nonsense Each breathe makes us sick So tell me, is this why this called a game? No fun, no glory Losing, the only choice we had That's why they call me loser Keep on losing, keep on losing You're an illusion in my daydream Stood in front of silent promises Where there's nothing for me to earn Wake me up, let me run the night You gave me summer under the pouring rain You taught me to be wise while you brought the childhood senses back It was so great, it was so great So untrue, so fast Was it ever there? Or am I hallucinating What to earn, what to believe Sorry I'm clueless So fool me no more Or taught me to be reckless instead Don't meet me halfway Meet me where the path ends Or we could start all over again Life is f...

"Kalo gitu nggak ada lagi yang perlu dibicarain." Bengong. Asli. Kalo kata-kata bisa membunuh, mungin sekarang gue udah tinggal nama. Oke lebay... Mungkin paling banter sekarang gue cuma butuh transfursi darah. Oke tetep lebay. Intinya, kalimat yang terlontar dingin itu sukses bikin gue lemes, kuping panas, jantung minta lompat keluar, dan otak meronta. Gue bukan abis berantem sama cowok gue since I don't have one wakaka, atau berantem sama bokap nyokap. Yang abis gue lakuin adalah wawancara, seperti yang gue bilang di postingan sebelumnya. Hari ini di mulai dengan baik. Sarapan oatmeal pake pisang, wearing my fave shirt, fave watch, fave bracelet, dan Speed of Sound muncul di radio pagi ini. Gue nunggu giliran selama dua jam lebih dengan kalem dan sedikit nervous. Tapi pas klimaks...wawancara selesai gitu aja setelah si pewawancara denger gue tanggal 25-28 liburan.... Gue tau gue cengeng, satu sekolah juga tau. Tapi udah lama gue nggak ngerasain sekecewa ini dan s...

Sekarang tanggal berapa? Jam berapa? *sok lupa* H-1 SNMPTN tertulis dan....wawancara program magang kompas MuDa *flat face* Okay, program magang taunan ini emang sepele mungkin buat kalian, dan minggu ini habis buat panikin kakak gue buat snmptn tertulis besok, jadi wawancara ini cuma intermezzo. Tapi dengan semua kesialan malam ini gue sadar satu hal: gue belom siap. sama. sekali. Jadi pas seleksi berkas kemaren lewat email gue nyantumin salah satu tulisan gue yang di muat di Student Globe, dan begitu besok disuruh dibawa dan baru gue cari malem ini, that frickin newspaper is nowhere to be found :) Perfect :) Habis itu akhirnya gue pasrah aja terus mau ngeprint biasa aja, berikut beberapa artikel selain itu dan biodata. Tiba-tiba printer laknat itu menjadi bentuk konspirasi semesta yang menjengkelkan: tintanya abis. Wuidih seneng banget gue. Silahkan tertawa, printer sial, sekarang mbak gue lagi ke warnet nyiahaha. Eh gaboleh takabur entar gagal lagi ngeprintnya :') Selain it...

First post! Ayey! Since my previous blog -which I love the most- is getting way too personal and frontal and whatsoever, I've decided to set it into a private blog hahaha suck that yan del and anybody elses that love to peek into my super personal life :p So I made this new blog, which will contain my less personal life, less personal thoughts, reviews, and maybe some of my writings too. Feel free to enjoy~ Speaking of  reviews, I am currently obsessed and inspired by NYLON Indonesia's associate editor named Alexander Kusuma Praja which you could find him  here . He wrote the best review and interview of underground to mainstream music, from albums to gigs, from the music to their personal life, bottom line: I.Just.Love.What.He.Wrote. So having a lot of free time during holiday makes me wanna write some music reviews, or I could sometimes post movie and food review, I don't know~~~ Since I love music so much and couldn't do a single thing about that except loving and...